I've reached a self-discovery phase of my life.
The humorous things that I do and that happen to and around me just don't seem quite as humorous as they once did. Don't get me wrong. They are funny, but something inside of me has turned a corner.
I will continue to write, but, if you'll bear with me, I'm on a new journey to discover myself. I want to answer the important questions... Who am I really? What's important to me? What are my strengths and weaknesses? And why am I not my top priority?
There are a lot (a lot alot!) more questions, but that doesn't make for fun reading.
When I was diagnosed with ADD (it was all ADD 31 years ago) I didn't know what that really meant. I assumed it meant I was broken, flawed, different, and would never fit in or be like anybody else.
I saw a post on a social media platform that asked, "What is ADHD to you? How would you express it? What do you want people to know about how it makes you feel?" That post sparked me to write the following poem. This is my mental definition of ADD. I hope you like it.
so shrill and so loud
unheard
unheeded
And relatively unknown
as it vies to break out
to rise above
the mundane mediocrity
of everyone else's egregious
emergencies
which rain down,
dripping and drenching
the unheard
the unheeded
and unknown
below
